Goal 1: Quit smoking!!!

 Today I took the first of my pills. I am still smoking. The pills will build in my system for 7 days then I will quit.

Official Quit Date: 01/ 28/ 2011

Alright, I understand that smoking is a gross habit and incredibly it is bad for your health just like the Surgeon General has always said. I cannot just stop however as it is an addiction. For those of you who don't know, an addiction is (as defined by M-W.com) "a compulsive need for and use of a habit-forming substance (as heroin, nicotine, or alcohol) characterized by tolerance and by well-defined physiological symptoms upon withdrawal; broadly : persistent compulsive use of a substance known by the user to be harmful". 

This said, I am in the process of quitting again officially as of today. I met with all my doctors this week and the biggest question asked of me as a total failure was: "What did you learn" So, this is where I will start. 

• I learned that each time you quit you are more likely to quit again raising your chances of quitting for good. 

• I learned that quit day is the hardest day of your life.

• I learned that Welbutrin helps quell the need to smoke. 

• I learned that staying busy is necessary.

• I learned that changing every habit associated with smoking is mandatory. 

• I learned that I cannot allow myself to be around smokers as it is a temptation and enabler.

• I learned that I must research stress coping strategies that do not involve bodily damage. 

• I learned that I can quit. I did it. I made it 3 months. Failure is not an end it is a challenge to try harder next time.